Now for the long awaited explanation of what the hell the "bets" are that I keep losing. It is a very long story but I'll try to get to the point as quickly as I can. As I said before I have a mentor- who is again awesome! Yes, yes take it in R. I know you are enjoying the praise LOL. Let me first explain the dynamic of our relationship so you have a better understanding of where I am coming from.
I started chatting with R on IM after exchaning a few messages back and forth on the BDSM site I mentioned before. At that time I was so leary of chatting with people because I had come across so many fakes and creeps that prey on women that are new to the scene, so they assume I know nothing and will fall for their little tricks. I was at the end of my rope; But I tried to stay positive and kept chatting with people hoping I would find a genuine person somewhere out in the world! When I started chatting with R I was very relieved, he seemed like a normal human being! In our conversations we talked about normal everyday things besides just D/s which was a nice change. He was easy to chat with and funny.
Somehow one day we got on the topic of all the losers I had been chatting with- I said I found it tough to tell who was real and who was fake since I was so new to the scene. He said he would be my mentor if I wanted. Immediately I think to myself "um, what kind of mentor are we talking about here? Cause if you are thinking what I think you are thinking- it is not happening!" Then he said "Don't worry, nothing sexual." which eased my mind. He said he would act as a sounding board, give me advice on things etc. I thought- perfect idea! So I agreed to him being my mentor. Then he said if I wanted we could create a new account that he could have access to as well so he could check the messages I receive from guys to help weed out the fakes. My reaction inside was "hell no! have you lost your mind?!" So because I'm so nice and can never say no to people I told him I was actually chatting with a guy at the moment that was considering me for a project; If it didn't work out then we could discuss the option of the account.
At the time I was chatting with a Dom who I will refer to as Blow Pop (I'll explain the name in my next post- you'll see why I chose that name :) As I'm sure you have figured out by now it did not work out with Blow Pop- so I very reluctantly agreed to start a new profile that R had access to. I had a problem with him being able to read the messages I sent to men and was afraid he would use my account and chat as me or something horrible like that, call me paranoid LOL. But- now I know I have nothing to worry about.
Well to make a long story short I still found idiots to talk to. I seemed to be drawn to men that liked to set rules and things like that without me even meeting them- ultimately because I craved it so much I let complete strangers set ridiculous rules for me to follow. So jokingly one day R said "you want rules? I'll set some rules for you!" Again first thing that popped in my head- "uh, what kind of rules are talking about here?!" Again- nothing sexual. So I asked him to tell me what the rules would be and then I'd let him know if I agreed to his little arrangement. So here are the hilarious rules he set for me:
1. Must text good morning every morning.
2. Will not delete any messages from the BDSM site. (I was deleting all the messages I sent to others so I felt I had some privacy- well that just created problems)
3. Must ask permission for lunch and dinner.
4. Must ask permission to go to bed at night.
5. No underwear at home. (hey- don't ask me, I didn't make the rules!)
The agreement was if I forgot a rule there would in return be a punishment. At first I thought- "you have completely lost your mind R!" but then I thought- "hey, that would actually be good practice for when I do find a Dom and have to follow his rules." At the same time it would satisfy my need for rules to be set and ultimately R's need to control! To me it sounded like a win- win situation. If anything it would just be some comedy relief. So I agreed to his terms. What I didn't think of at the time I agreed to follow these rules was that they would be hard for ME to follow! Not because they're complicated- they are very simple. But I have a horrible memory! So I didn't realize when I agreed that I would actually be getting a lot of punishments due to my lack of short term memory! He stacked the deck in his favor the little genius!So there- my big secret is revealed! They're not really bets- they are punishments. Everyone seems to enjoy the things R puts me through- but what can I say? I think it is pretty funny myself!
