Where did I leave off? Oh right- pulled into my driveway. Finally! We get inside and I'm thinking- ok, is that it? Is the night over? Or are you continuing this charade? "Do you want to continue sucking my cock? Or do you want it in you?" Geez- it's like asking me if I want milk chocolate or dark chocolate. I love both! I shrug. I ask "what do you want?" I'm not gonna force myself on you if you don't want me dude. "That wasn't answering my question." He pulls my hair "it's a simple question. It's not rocket science!" Finally I say "I want you inside me." "Now was that so hard?" "No" I can't help but giggle- like I said I giggle when I get nervous. He slams me against the wall and pins my hands above my head. "What's so funny, huh? That wasn't meant to be a funny question. If I wanted to laugh I'd put on Robin Williams...." I lose it at that point. Inside I'm rolling on the floor laughing but I hold it in and say "sorry". Then he starts spanking me. "This is for making me wait for an answer." Spank, spank, spank! "A little slut like you should not sit there and waste my time by making me wait for an answer!" Spank, spank, spank!
After a while he runs his fingers lightly ove my ass "what did you learn?" I hesitate, he pulls my hair- "hmm?" "to answer the first time." "Good girl." He spins me around and slams my back against the wall and starts kissing me, biting my neck- God I love that! I don't know what it is but the minute I feel teeth on my neck I go crossed eyed from pleasure. Guess you could say that's my special spot- you can get me to do anything if you just bite me into oblivion. Ok- so that is totally a joke! Don't get any ideas Kinky! He steps away and I fix my dress strap that fell down- or somehow got pulled down in the process? Got me! I also step away from the wall- he pushes me against the wall again "I didn't tell you to move!" He pulls my dress strap back down. "Now if you want my cock inside you, you have to get me hard again." He unbuttons his pants "oh, I already am. Guess you just have to lube it up." I'm in a daze at the moment- he almost sounds like the teacher on Charlie Brown "Mwah, Mwah mwah." Huh? Were you talking to me? I'm assuming he just asked me to suck his cock. So I bend over and suck on him for a few seconds and then I stand back up. He is just standing there staring at me- the inner child in me comes out and I want to push limits. So I just stand there and stare back, waiting for him to say something. I see a smile forming- oh, he's gonna break character! Come on- I know you want to smile. "I didn't tell you to stop." Damn, not gonna happen. Fine you win- as usual. So I bend back over and suck his cock again. After a while he grabs my hair and pulls my head up quickly. He turns me around so I'm facing the wall and pulls down my underwear. Finally! I'm not going to go into details about every little thing- just not me, I have to keep something to myself! Plus at that point all I was concentrating on was my sense of touch, sound.
He takes me right there up against the wall. Yum, yum, yum. After a while he grabs my wrist and pins it behind me pulls me away from the wall and steers me down the hall towards an empty bedroom- my daughter's old room to be exact. Kinky! Wrong in so many ways but makes it that much more fun. He turns on the light- wait, wait a damn minute here! I don't fuck with the lights on Buster! Why? Because my flabby blinding white ass will make you run away screaming if it doesn't blind you from the reflection of the light first! I know I will definately not win that fight- I know the more I fight for the lights off due to my own insecurities it will just end the same- the lights will stay on. He pushes me down so I'm on all fours and pretty much just has his way with me :) The whole time he is talking to me but I am so zoned out I have no clue what he is saying- plus I can't hear him over my own damn moans! I'm in my own little happy place, he spanks me but for the life of me I don't remember any pain from it. I don't know how hard the spanks were- but I feel nothing. All I feel is pure pleasure at that point. He makes me turn so I'm facing the mirror and tells em to look at myself. I hate to look in the mirror in the morning let alone when I am completely blissed out! I look for a second and I see my eyes- who is this person?! I have never seen my eyes glazed over like this before. Then again I don't make it a habit to look in the mirror during moments like this! I'm not sure if I look like a total disaster or if it is hot. So I close my eyes. He keeps telling me to look in the mirror. I look every once in a while. Still don't know if I look completely ridiculous or not. But at that moment I don't care because I'm too busy cumming!
He pulls out and lays down on his back and says "since I've been doing all the work- it's your turn. Suck my cock." At this point I honestly don't know how useful I am when it comes to pleasuring- I can't even form a damn sentence. But I do as I'm told. Then he pulls me up to straddle him and says "ride me." With those words somehow I mentally go back 10 years. I freeze and I don't say anything- I just shake my head no. I have a little complex when it comes to something that happened 10 years ago with a situation similar to that and I can't believe it still effects me after so long. I felt so bad at that moment because I totally shut down and didn't want to talk- I withdrew as I normally do when it comes to this particular problem. I just get so embarrassed by my reaction and that something still effects me that much that I just freeze and I want to go run and hide. I don't want to talk about what exactly my issue is on here- it is very private. Let's just say it has to do with a very mentally abusive boyfriend I had at the time. See- the difference between Kinky and another play partner that this happened with- Kinky understood and stopped! He actually wanted to address it and discuss it- not just treat me like an object.
I felt like I ruined the whole night and experience for Kinky. See- Kinky says it's about the sub's pleasure and feeling comfortable- what?! Wow- I'm so used to hearing everyone say the sub is only there to please the Dom completely and not for the sub's pleasure at all. I felt like I didn't live up to being a good sub. I felt like I didn't push myself enough and didn't give my all to please. But- he was so kind during the whole situation. I totally trust and respect him more now for the way he handled everything. No matter the situation I can honestly say I trust him 100% now. It is just fun and he actually understands and takes the time to get to know ME and treats me as a person and not an object. So thank you for being a true gentleman Kinky :)
Other than me totally losing it at the end of the night- my God!!! When can we do it again? hehe I wish every night were that intense. I can only hope that Kinky receives as much pleasure as I do. Looking forward to more fun experiences.
