Holy Testicle Tuesday!!! Boy oh boy do I have a story to share :) As I said before- big plans Wednesday night- my first trip to Bondage A Go Go! Kinky Candy invited me to go. I admit I am nervous when I am in big crowds and in a new place with lots of people I'm not familiar with that are kinky sons of bitches! I'm a very shy person- I'm a wallflower, what can I say? But I was excited to go! So in a fiesty mood one day I e-mailed Kinky and basically said "use me like the little slut that I am. Do with me as you see fit." Then the next day I get a text from Kinky- "I want you to be ready to be used by me and my friends at BaGG and fucking love it Slut!" I text back "hehe, ok". After a few minutes it hits me- bam! Wait just a damn minute! Used?! By your friends?! What the hell do you have planned? That- that could mean lots of things! You know my active imagination! R didn't help things either- "I'm just worried he's going to take you somewhere for a gang bang." Thanks for keeping me calm R! Great job! Dammit- just one more worry. Me and my big mouth. Always getting myself in trouble.
As Wednesday approached I got more and more nervous. What the hell does he have planned? Yes I know it's never as extreme as the crazy ideas my mind comes up with and I know he would never do anything I didn't want to. Yet everytime- I can't help it! My brain goes into overdrive and thinks "uh oh! What if it is a gang bang he has planned? Shit!" So Wednesday comes arond and I am shaking from my nerves all day. I get dressed- not happy with my dress even after going to at least 20 stores! But my boots- God! Love my boots! I've never done this before, but for some reason I feel the need to take 20 minutes and sit there in silence- get in the zone if I'm going to make it through this night still standing. I figure- I'll meditate, clear my head. I have a feeling I need a clear head for the events ahead of me. So I sit down on the floor- ok, time to get in sub mode! I'm definately going to have to be in sub mode tonight full force! I think "you are here to please him. Your only job tonight is to make him happy and act like the perfect little sub that you are." Then instead of clearing my head I find myself looking at my boots- Damn! I don't care- I know my legs look hot in these things. I can't help wondering what Kinky's reaction will be to the boots. I know he loves boots as much as I do. I happen to catch a glimpse of the top of my dress out of the corner of my eye. Yum! I may not have the worlds biggest chest but in this dress- with the cut outs in the fabric- you get glimpses of cleavage. I guess this dress was a good choice after all! Totally my style- It's not over the top. I don't just show as much skin as I can like "look at me!" I like more subtle. From far away it looks like a normal cute little black dress- you get closer and from the right angles you get quite a view. Plus the fabric is thin so it is almost see through. Subtle yet a bit revealing at times. A tease- leaves you wanting to see more. That's my style. I don't just advertise the goods to whoever is in the room to see- I don't hang out in my panties and bra! You have to work for it and I have to be willing to show you.
After my little meditation- or self ogling session- I go back to the living room to wait for Kinky. I'm feeling pretty confident with my boots and dress. Knock, knock! Woo hoo! I open the door and the minute I see him I lose all confidence- I almost run into the other room. I think- "maybe I don't look good after all." But I must say Kinky looks hot as hell in his uniform. God, I LOVE uniforms. I'm almost torn- I know he has leather pants and I was expecting to see him in leather but when I see that uniform- yum. "Please officer, is there anything I can do to persuade you to not bring me in for questioning? Anything at all?" Oops- sorry, went into cheesy porno fantasy mode there for a minute. Now due to my drop in confidence when he walks in- my plans to jump on him the minute he walks through the door shatter. I'm too busy thinking "Do I look alright? Am I dressed appropriatetly? Do I just look like an all out fool and not sexy in the least?" So I just stand there in the kitchen leaning against the counter unable to make eye contact. He grabs me and hugs me- well that's a good sign. Bites me on the neck- Mmmm! Already leaving marks and the night hasn't even begun- yeah, turtleneck needed tomorrow. He turns me around and shoves me into the wall and pins me down with his arm on my neck, upper back. He may be on the smaller side but he is strong! God- I love it! That feeling of knowing he has the strength to put me in my place. He tries to lift up my dress, I fight him as I am already in self conscious mode. I'm thinking "no! My ass is horrid- you don't want to see it!" He shoves me harder against the wall and lifts up my dress and spanks me. "Don't fight me!" He spanks me harder. He grabs my hair and pulls my head back. I don't know why but it seems I can't help it- immediately everytime he goes from talking about normal everyday stuff to Dom mode- I can't help but smile at first. Like "yeah- let's get this party started!" So when he pulls my hair that first time and whispers in my ear I get this huge grin on my face. "Did you forget what I told you yesterday? Or did you think I forgot? Why didn't you suck my cock right when I walked in the door?" I say "no, I didn't forget." He lets go of my hair. "Well get to work then." I kneel down in front of him. God I love to suck his cock. After a few minutes he pulls my head back and says "Now stand up and take off your panties."
I stand up and take off my panties. He stuffs my panties in his shirt pocket. I'm thinking "Don't tell me I'm going to have to go all night without panties! Dammit!" He turns me around so I'm facing the wall and fucks me. He only does for a few minutes- just the perfect amount of time for me to be in the mindset of "I'll do whatever the fuck you want right now!" He hands me back my panties and says "now put your panties back on slut." I get myself back together. He says "I'm not going to spank you because I'm sure my friends are going to do a good job of that tonight." Oh lord- another public spanking! He said friends! Plural- how many we talking here?! Am I going to be able to sit tomorrow? We head to his truck. I ask him "ok, what do you mean used? That could mean a lot of things! Just a hint please?" "Well, they'll use your ass that's for sure. But no, no one is going to fuck you." Damn straight they're not! I may be open but yeah- we are not talking gang bang here! After a bit of driving he tells me to suck his cock- he has a thing for getting head while driving. But honestly- I don't ever mind sucking that cock- it's nice, very nice. So instead of just trying to make him cum quickly- which is usually my goal- I just try out different things, try to figure out what he likes best. Everyone's different. I think you have to experiment with each partner at first to see what drives them crazy. Plus- I just like oral. So I try licking, sucking hard and fast, slow and deep- Mmmm- ok he likes that. I scratch his thighs while I'm sucking on him- oh he really likes that! Yum. We pull into the parking lot and I am already a hot mess and we haven't even gone into BaGG! So we get out and start walking. I'm still self concious wondering if my boots are too much and if my dress is too plain.
Now- a very nice gentleman was going to be at BaGG also that I had exchanged a few messages with but wasn't really looking to see if we connected on any level other than friendship. At first when I chatted with him I did but I was there with Kinky and I just wanted to enjoy my time with him that evening. I didn't want to try and connect with another at that point. That wasn't my goal that evening. I was kind of nervous to see him there because I didn't know how he would take seeing me walk in with Kinky. I don't know if he is poly or not- not sure what his thoughts are on all that. I had told him I would be there with a friend but not a "friend". Kinky said "Don't worry. My friends and I will protect you from him." I'm thinking- oh great! This is not going to turn out well! He's going to go off somewhere and leave me to the wolves! But the minute we get in the door he grabs my hand and leads me letting everyone know I'm there with him. I have to say it was totally unexpected but I ate it up! Oh oh! He is here! Maybe he wont recognize me, maybe I look different from my pics. He looks at me "you're beautiful in person." Blushing- I hate compliments. Then he comes over and stands right next to me. "Nice to finally meet you." I'm completely at a loss for words. Don't you see me holding Kinky's hand? "Nice to finally meet you as well." I am torn- I feel bad because he was wanting to meet for a while and I'm always nice to everyone, but I don't want to lead him on because at the moment- I'm getting close to Kinky and I'm not one who wants to meet several people at once and try to establish connections with numerous people. I take my time and I concentrate on one connection at a time. I really want to take the time to get to know Kinky more and I am working on trust with him. Plus- it takes a lot for me to actually open up to someone in order to trust them. I admit- it is very hard to gain my trust so I tend to shy away from people- I only trust a few individuals completely and it takes time to get to that level of trust. "You were my main motivation for coming out tonight." Aww, shucks! Who wouldn't smile at that comment? Awkward silence. "You really are shy in person." You have no idea! The way he's looking at me though I admit I feel a little special. He's looking at me like I'm this gorgeous creature. It's nice to get that kind of attention. Then Kinky grabs my hand "Let's go outside." "Your not going to take her away from me already are you?" "Yep!" Ok- so I like that two individuals are giving me so much attention- hehe.
We stand outside for a bit, well quite a while! I like that I can talk to Kinky wihtout being self conscious- that takes a lot for me. I am normally on edge the whole time I am talking to someone. We chat with a few others. Kinky starts talking about his uniform- Mmmm. Love uniforms- the only reason I mention this is because he starts showing me how they had to stand in the acedemy. He turns around so his back is to me- his hands are behind his back and I have never had this feeling before in my life but looking at his ass in those pants I honestly don't know what I want to do! I have a few thoughts running in my head. I want to spank him or maybe grab his ass! I just want to rub my hands all over his body! But I don't only because we are outside in public with others around and um, yeah- I wouldn't want to stop. I'm in boot and corset heaven! I want every pair of boots that I see others wearing and I want a damn corset! Yum. Some young jock looking dudes are walking down the street and one of them says loudly "vampires!" hehe- what just because we are in black and like kinky sex we are vampires? You want a vampire? Come here and I'll bite your neck- I know you'll end up liking it! You wish you could have the kind of pleasure we all have in our lives. After a bit the lower level of the club opens and we go inside. I love the fucking city! I am so happy to just be around others that are as crazy as me. I feel a connection with each individual just by being at this club and enjoying the same things they do. I wish I could feel that comfortable everyday. I can honestly say when I am at any event that involves BDSM- I am at peace. That is the only way to describe it- I am happy, comfortable, I feel at home. I feel like I've been lost for years and finally found where I belong.
The gentleman that was talking to me earlier found us again and we start chatting. Kinky takes my arms and wraps them around him so I'm hugging him from behind. Then the battle of testosterone begins! I'm sorry but I felt like the most gorgeous woman at that moment. Here I am- I have two men not really talking to me but to each other and trying to top one another on their kinks. Trying to impress ME and show who is the real man! What could be hotter?! The gentleman says he likes to spank and he likes paddles and things like that. Then Kinky had to talk about how he has spanked my ass quite a bit. Then the gentleman comes back with something and it goes on and on. I'm just sitting there listening to it all and loving every minute of it. Both of these guys- want me! Yahoo! Just a litle boost of confidence. We go back upstairs and watch some of the play going on. Hehe- I'm standing between two guys that apparently have slipped and fell and bumped their head leaving them with a massive brain injury so they now think I'm some hot chick so they are both trying to impress me, while watching my favorite- flogging. Mmmm- I want to be in there! Why do I love a flogger so much? I don't know why but I do! We head back outside to get some air again. We start talking to some of Kinky's friends. He tells them he would like them to spank me! Oh great! Here we go! He is speaking to an older individual- then he start talking to me. "So have you been spanked in public before?" "Yes" "With a hand?" "Yes" "How about a paddle?" "Yes" Then he lists a bunch of things I really don't hear cause I'm sitting there thinking "Am I wrong for finding this coversation totally hot?!" Here we are discussing spanking! My spankings! Hehe- I can't wait!
After a while we go back inside to look for another of Kinky's friends. We find her and I get to meet her which I have to say I was excited about. I've heard a lot about her and I love to meet new people. She is a Domme but apparently loves Kinky's spankings. We chat a bit then out of nowhere it turns into a wrestling match between Kinky and his friend. Actually- kind of hot. Then he starts spanking her- ok totally loving it! I don't usually get to see Kinky when he is spanking me so I don't get to see how much he enjoys it- plus I love to see someone get spanked :) He then talks to her about my public spanking- how many people are going to spank my ass tonight?! Come on! We head back upstairs and hang out up there for a bit and then finally- thank God, cause my feet are about to fall off in these damn boots- we go sit down. We sit down near the dance floor downstairs. Mmmm- Go Go dancers. Yes, I'll admit if a girl is hot- this girl was pretty cute. But I'm not really paying attention to her right now- I'm not really paying attention to anything right now because I am sitting next to Kinky and just enjoying my time. We are both cuddly people so I think this was actually one of the times I liked best about the evening. We just sat there and kind of cuddled- of course there was some making out invloved and biting and rubbing- you know. But I enjoyed just talking and sitting close to him. It has been a long time since someone has shown me that much attention and I love it. I also have to say I found out just how much I enjoy biting as well. I bite him on the neck every once in a while but I don't usually do it very hard. He told me this time I could bite harder- so I did. I know it might sound odd but I love that feeling of flesh between my teeth. Plus I love his reaction to it. I could go on and on about this part of the night but I wont. I'll just say that I felt like we bonded a lot at that time and completely got lost in the moment and didn't care who the hell was around or who was looking or what we did- I just focused on our time.
We head back upstairs after a while and talk to another of his friends. We sit down and they are talking their man computer techy mumbo jumbo and I just sit there with a blank stare on my face. Hello- there are people getting spanked and pinched and flogged over there and you are just sitting here like it is a regular night club discussing technology? Dudes! I was done- this is kinky time people! I mock them "mwah, mwah, mwah, mwah." Kinky grabs my hair and pulls hard "Don't mock me." hehe- yeah I'm in a fiesty mood. His friend looks at us and says "so is she your sub?" I don't know what to say- I look at Kinky to see what he says. Well- I mean we're friends but yes I am the sub in the dynamic- but HIS sub? Not sure about that one. I wait for Kinky to answer "Yes, she is." I try not to act like a giddy school girl. Yes- we are friends and I know we connect but I'm not sure if he is looking to have a sub. Not sure if we are just friends, play partners- what it is- but I know we have a great time together and connect. Labeling it never crossed my mind- but the minute he says I'm his sub I have to say I actually liked hearing that. Just like I liked the whole night how he held my hand and led me through the club- I just felt like he totally wanted me there and was happy I was there with him and I just felt special. Kinky went outside to get his friends for my spanking after that! Oh God- here goes nothing!
So Kinky left me with his friend while he went outside. He was a very friendly guy and I admit cute. But this dude is younger than me- too much younger than me but I keep thinking- he's hot! At one point he asked me something and the way he looked at me and the way he said it I was like hyperventilating inside. I like sexy voices and words really get to me. But then I mentally slapped myself- Stop it! This dude is a baby compared to you! Ok- so not really. He gets up and leaves so then I am there sitting alone. I freak! OMG! What the hell? Now I'm sitting here all alone before I get spanked in public and I have no one to calm me down! Ok, deep breaths- you're going to live, it's just a spanking! Finally Kinky comes back with his friends. Oh boy- my legs are shaking. His friend- the one that was asking me all the questions earlier about bare hand spanking and paddles etc. is first. "OK- do you want to start with the skirt down and then pull it up or skirt down the whole time?" What?! I can't think! OMG! Ok- breathe. You are not going to be naked and people see this all the time around here- nothing new about a girl getting paddled. What the hell- lets go for it. "start with the skirt down and then pull it up." He asks me to lean over and hold onto this ledge on the wall. He starts to rub my ass- I'm freaking a little inside because here I am being spanked by a married man and his wife is right there watching the whole thing! Sorry- new concept to me! He spanks me firmly. OK- Kinky was right, he has a very nice hand. He spanks me a few more times, harder each time. Hotness! He asks me "Is that too firm or too soft?" "No it's just fine." He goes back to spanking- he lifts my skirt and spanks me hard! Then he pauses- I had my eyes close. I open my eyes and I can see his shadow and that he is now holding a paddle. Did I ever tell you I hate paddles? I've had it done maybe twice and none have been very big paddles. The one he is holding isn't huge but it is solid!
Whack! Ok, not as bad as I thought it would be. Whack! ok- so it's stings a bit. Whack! Whack! Whack! Fuck!!!!!!!!!! Whack, whack, whack, whack, whack! Sweet Mother of Abraham Lincoln!!!! Whack, whack! Baby Jesus!!!!! He calls his wife over. She's spanking me too?!!!! Yes- she spanks me! This is getting more and more odd! She taps the paddle a few time and then gives one hard smack! Oh- she's good too! She does it on the other side. Then another pause. I see another shadow and this one is a long thin instrument. I'm not sure what it is but it does not look like I will like it! Thwack! Holy Hell!!! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! What is that thing?! Thwack! Jesus Christ and all that is holy!!!!! Another pause- OMG! Thank God he's done with that thing! NO! Not the paddle again!!!! Whack! Whack! Whack! Going to my happy place now. Whack! Whack! Am I going to be able to walk out of here? Whack! Whack! Dear God! You sure like paddles don't you?! "Are you doing ok?" I pause, I'm wondering- should I continue? Usually I would stop at this point but I know I'll want more the minute he stops. I'll push myself a little farther this time. "Yes I'm fine." Whack! Whack! Whack! Why did I agree to this?! Whack! Whack! Holy Mother of God!!!! Ok- just, just relax. He's probably almost done. "I don't work with safewords. All you have to do is tell me to stop and I will." Whack! Whack! "Now there is definately some blood vessels broken." I can tell he probably thinks I've had enough and I'm wondering that myself. But I tell him I'm ok. Whack! Whack! Ok- I'm done! He stops. WOW! I can barely move.
I stand there in total shock for a minute and I talk to Kinky's friend who just bruised my ass and his wife. Must say- very odd! I'm standing here talking to a married couple that just beat my ass! But they are both wonderful people and I'm so happy I was able to meet them. I'm glad Kinky's other friend was busy so she couldn't join in cause honestly my ass could not take anymore! After chatting a bit more we head home. The ride home is great. We talk about the experience and more deep conversation. I just like talking to Kinky as much as I like him spanking me hehe. Both are great. We get back to my house. I go to take my boots off because my feet are literally numb. "No, don't take those off yet." Aww, man! What else do you have planned? He tells me to stand up. I stand up and he sits down in the chair and tells me to suck his cock. Again- never gets old and I love every minute of it! After a while he pulls me up and has me straddle him on the chair. I don't normally like to be on top but hey- why not! Mmmm- great except for the fact that my boots keep slipping and I'm nearly doing the splits while trying to be decent on top! Yeah- not working. So we head to my bedroom. I'm not going to go into full detail because maybe this time I want to keep this part to myself :) I'll just say it was fucking hot! I love how he whispers in my ear- I can't remember much of what he said because I was in my own little blissful world but I love when someone whispers in my ear like that. I didn't give a damn how loud I was, who heard, what I sounded like- I just didn't want him to stop! Normally I'm not like that- I'm so self concious about what the other is thinking and what I sound like blah, blah. Not now- just don't stop whatever you're doing!
So yes- we had a very, very nice evening. I honestly enjoyed every second of the experience and I really hope there are more to come. A few days later R asked me what shade of purple my ass was! He pulled up a page of purple candies- I told him it was a cross between wild blueberry Jelly Belly and grape crush Jelly Belly. He said "perfect! We'll just call you Jelly Belly!" Dammit R! You and you traps! Just trying to come up with a nickname for me! Not concerned or wondering what color my ass is just for your gratification! No- you have to come up with yet another nickname! Hey- guess it's only fitting since I give all my guys candy names. I have my own now- Jelly Belly!
