Bright Orange Wallflower

I must say I feel quite ignored lately people :( No more e-mails or discussions about my blog- do you not find me interesting anymore? Yes! I'm whining- I miss the discussions, the attention. But that is just me- I'm the type that acts out to get attention and then once I'm noticed I can't handle it so I act like I didn't want to be noticed. I admit it- its out in the open, I'm an attention whore! Ok- so maybe not to that extreme but I do like attention from time to time. I want to know people know I exist! Geez- is that so much to ask? (Of course I'm totally being sarcastic- hopefully you all know that by now) Plus- I'm not chatting with like 5 dudes now- so I kind of have time to think again! I admit I do like chatting with Sir and am interested to see where that goes, but I do miss all the attention- I'm not going to lie :) So- I feel the need to misbehave sometimes to get a little attention. What? I know- feisty- that's me!


I have noticed though that I am one that is very shy but from time to time I act out as if to say "Hey- over here! Notice me! Look what I can do!" Then once I am noticed I freak inside and realize- "oh, maybe I didn't want the attention." I think we are all like that though- it is in us as humans to want to be noticed, we crave that attention. We want to know others accept us, know we exist. Some just may act out in an unhealthy way. I just tend to be like a little kid and keep bugging you until you pay attention to me :) I get frustrated sometimes because people don't take the time to get to know me for me. They tend to see this shy girl who does nto put herself out there and they judge me totally based on that. I don't mean to sound full of myself, but I know it is completely true. Ask any of my friends or one that has taken the time to get to know me- they will tell you I am one of the funniest, outgoing, sweet people you will ever meet. Once I am comfortable around you- I open up and I am a party! I'm just pure craziness! I'm up for anything- as I'm sure you could tell by some of my posts he he.


So yeah- I want to be noticed! Who doesn't? I may act like I don't and don't put myself out there all the time because I think I don't deserve anyones attention, but that doesn't mean I don't crave it just like everyone else does- I am human after all.