Kid In A Candy Store Indeed!

Oh- SF Citadel- where do I even begin? First going into the evening I had no idea what to expect. When R said "Let's go to Citadel!" My first thought was "you have completely lost your mind." But then I figured if nothing else it would be a learning experience. I could see the dynamic of a Dom/sub, Master/slave relationship in full effect. I had no intention of playing whatsoever. But me being me with my horrible memory- of course I forgot some rules the night before and the day we went to Citadel. So my punishment this time? A public spanking- but I had a choice- I got to decide who would spank me. If we didn't find someone I was willing to have spank me then it wouldn't happen. I thought "great- what have I gotten myself into!" So needless to say R was on a mission all night to find someone to spank me. LOL


So I was very nervous going in- I'm not one who is into voyeurism so for me to stand there and just watch others made me very uncomfortable at first. But as the night went on I was surprisingly more comfortable with it. At first things were pretty tame- not much going on. Some girls were working on suspension bondage, a guy massaging/spanking a woman, some electrical play. Now I thought I was tame- but as the night went on- I have to say I was a little disappointed with how tame the Doms were. I thought I'd be seeing some major flogging, spanking- something! Needless to say I found out I'm more extreme than I thought :)


There were a few things that stood out though for different reasons. The most interesting part for me (well besides Mistress Trinity- but I'm getting ahead of myself) was to see the different dynamics with each couple- they varied so much! At the end of the night I was so comfortable with everything and so overwhelmed by the acceptance I wanted to join hands and form a ring with everyone there and sing "Joy to the world, all the boys and girls..." and give a big group hug and celebrate our sexuality! LOL I was in heaven- I was just so amazed that everyone felt so comfortable to be who they were, to have the confidence to walk around naked no matter what they looked like or who was around. I would have stripped naked myself at that point- and that's saying a lot becuase I'm not even comfortable being naked in private! I envy those who have the confidence to be so comfortable with themselves. I'm surprised R didn't have to drag me out of there kicking and screaming, saying I wanted to go back.


I'll explain a few situations that stood out to me. First there was a couple that I still cannot wrap my mind around. They came in and he was leading her on a leash- but she had no expression whatsoever! Nothing- just blank. Didn't say a word- just looked straight ahead. So once they atarted playing- just from the way the Dom presented himself(the way he was dressed, the way he treated his sub) I thought "yeah- now it's going to get crazy!" So he stripped her down to bra and underwear, garter belt and bound her to a St. Andrew's cross. He started timidly hitting her with a flogger- nothing major- just kind of in a teasing manner almost. Again- she had no emotion- no expression of pain or even enjoyment! She looked like she was listening to a boring ass lecture and about to fall asleep! She just looked like she was not metanlly there at all. They continued the whole night that way. Not once did I see any emotion on her face that night. To me it was odd. I don't know if she wasn't showing emotion because that is what her Master wanted or if it was because she didn't enjoy it at all- I still can't decide.


Next there was a Domme and her- I'll call him Bunny Boy. I have to say if I was a Domme- I would totally have the same style as this woman. The dynamic between them was hilarious. You could tell they were both having fun the whole time. She was big on verbal humiliation. She would put him down and laugh at him- I was cracking up myself! You could tell the guy was having fun as well- he was smiling the whole time. At one point she put a fluffy bunny tail on him and told him to hop like a bunny- oh hilarious! I was in hysterics. They kept up that dynamic the whole night and I have to say it was refreshing and fun to watch her get him to do all these ridicuouls things.


The next that stood out- only stood out because this woman was so annoying! She was very vocal- it didn't take much to get her screaming. Everytime I heard a yelp or a scream I expected to turn around and see some crazy ass shit going on- but everytime I turned around it was the same thing. This man was barely tapping her nipples with what looked like a wooden spoon. Either she could not handle any pain at all or she was putting on a major show for everyone.


Another was a Dom playing upstairs. He was using a whip and flogger on a woman. He was more worried about looking cool as hell swinging around the flogger than he was of pleasing his partner. Seriously it was like he was just putting on a show for everyone watching. Like- "look what I can do! I have nunchucks- no wait- they're floggers! Look I can spin them! I can do this- I can do that!" Come on dude! Get to it, let the woman have it already! While we were sitting watching Mr. Karate himself- a couple walked in- a man in leather pants and a woman in a short leather skirt and top- if you can even call it that. Badically it was three tiny strips of leather hehe- didn't cover anything, just framed it. I thought "wow, that guy sure likes to dress his slave in some hot outfits." They made their way downstairs. We sat and watched Mr. Karate for a little longer then we started hearing some crazy things going on downstaris- so we headed downstairs.


The first thing I see when we go downstairs is the couple in leather outfits- but the man was on all fours with a collar on and a leash attached to it and the woman was yelling at him and flogging the hell out of him! "Holy shit- she's a Domme! A hot Domme at that!" First let me say- I am not into women at all ok? But this chick was fine! I just assumed when we saw them that the man was the Dom- it was totally unexpected- totally! She was freakin insane! I thought- "now the night is getting interesting! Finally someone who knows what they're doing!" Their dynamic way crazy! He fought her every inch of the way. She would tell him to kiss the ground she walked on and he would not do it- he would yell stuff back at her and she would go crazy with the flogger again and yell back at him. It was great entertainment!


I think R and I had the same idea at that moment- "oh yeah, she's so going to be the one to spank me tonight!" I have to say- I never understood why you would want a woman to dominate you- but now I can see why- Domme's like Mistress Trinity! So R waited and waited and waited, hehe, for the opportunity to ask Mistress Trinity if she would be willing to punish me. First she looked at us like we were crazy- I thought "good, she's not going to want to do it! I got off easy!" But then she said "sure!" I think R has never been so excited in his life haha.In her lovely accent- not sure what it was exactly, german maybe- She asked what I needed to be punished for- I told her I had broken some rules. She asked which rules- I had forgotten to ask permission to go to bed the night before and for lunch that day. Now the whole time R and I are are talking to her she is scratching me with her sharp nails on my arm! She told me to put down my things and take my shirt off.


At this point R had told her I needed a spanking- nothing else. So the next thing I know I am bound by my wrists to a St. Andrew's cross, she tells me I need to learn to follow rules. I hear her behind me getting things ready- then out of nowhere- smack!- she hit me on my back! "Oh my god- she's using a flogger on me! Wait- you didn't say anything about a flogger! What have I gotten myself into?! Actually that is pretty awesome- hehe. Never thought I would enjoy a flogging." She continued for a bit- nothing too extreme. Then she pauses- I hear R come up to me, the look on his face was priceless- it was like a deer in headlights- all he said was "tap your hand three times if you can't handle it anymore." I think both of us were so surprised by the flogger. Then she starts to spank me with a heart shaped paddle with little studs on it. "whoa- totally gonna feel this tomorrow!" Then she stops and she starts pressing the paddle on my back so the studs are digging into my skin. Then she begins to scratch my very tender back with her nails and, oh my god I can't believe I'm going to admit I actually enjoyed this, she presses her hips against mine. Yeah- again girls do not do it for me but wow LOL.


Mistress Trinity takes a minute to ask me what I can to do please R, I tell her to follow his rules and she asks me which rules those would be. I tell her and she says "very good, now I'm going to punish you a little bit more to make sure you remember to follow his rules." So I wait- I look down at the floor and all I see is a shadow of someone swinging a flogger! Then it begins again! This flogger is a bit bigger then the last one and she is getting a little crazy! The pain starts to get a little unbearable, I can tell any minute she's just going to let loose on my ass! She starts hitting a bit harder so I decide if I want to still be able to walk out of this place- I need to stop now! So I tap my hand three times and R stops her and tells me to thank Mistress Trinity. Still in a daze and hardly able to walk because my legs are like Jell-o we leave. Talk about an experience I will never forget! But the minute we get in the car- I want more! I think- well I should have held out for more- who knows when the next time is that I'll get to do that!


So I had a great night, but it made me realize how much I want to find a Dom. I want to be able to find a dynamic that works for me and another. I want to please someone by submitting to them and want them to be pleased to have me submit to them. I want to learn and keep growing. At this point I wonder if I will ever find a Dom that is right for me.