Life

"Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% what you do with what happens to you."

Lou Holtz(American Football Coach)


I couldn't have said it better myself Lou. I've been trying to come up with a post the past few days but nothing seems to be right. Sorry guys, I can't post about BDSM right now or my past or some play session I've had lately. Well for one- I haven't had any play sessions! Two- my mind has been occupied with other things recently. Life in general has been bringing me down! It's tough to stay positive 100% of the time- I try my best. Of course every now and then things get in the way and drag me back to my not so happy life a few years ago. Unfortunately there are still times I am reminded about my last relationship with my ex husband- lets just say we are not on speaking terms and I'm sure we never will be. My life has been a total blur these past two years. I had to deal with something the other day that reminded me of him. I can't help it- everytime he enters my thoughts I get so angry I want to punch him! Well- that might get me in trouble and he's in a totally different state so that's not an option.


I'm not going to share all the horrible details of our life together- I think that is too personal. Even though I want to scream at the top of my lungs and tell the whole world what a horrible, mean person he is. No- I wont stoop to his level and I wont share that much detail. I just get so tired of holding everything in- I have not told anyone all the details of what happened between us. Not even my best friend of 20 years! But this is not the place to share those things. I know you all read to hear of my experiences in BDSM- but I just can't write about that right now unfortunately and it's killing me! I don't want things to bother me- I just want to live my life. But I can't help but be reminded every once in a while. Like Lou Holtz said- life is 10% what happens to you- the other 90% is up to me how I handle it and I don't like the way I'm handling it right now. So I'm going to take a few days to regroup and get my head on straight again. More to come....